Miss Mara Menocide

Lelo!!!

Sun, 06 Dec 2009 09:42:05 GMT

I found the cutest vibrators the other day and added one to my wishlist. Smokebitch sent me a $150 giftcard so i could buy it. I also bought some clothes and some other junk but um most excited for my new virbator! haha.

I hate finals.

Sat, 05 Dec 2009 00:31:23 GMT

Can school just be over already?!

Added a new proof pic to my site.

I have a new slave who seems to be obsessed with watching me smoke.

Old fuck ups are coming back out acting like they deserve a second chance. *rolls eyes*

I recieved an amazon package today which made me smile. I'll talk more about it in my next tribute post.

I'm off to take a shower and go to my boyfriends house. Wont be too exciting as i have tons of work to do :/.

Happy turkey day!

Fri, 27 Nov 2009 03:18:28 GMT

Happy turkey day everyone! i've been dealing with a new sub who i will be calling cameljockey. So far he is doing well. Its a nice change from all the time wasters ive been getting lately. I've blocked so many idiots the past few days. I really dont understand what they get out of it. If you dont have cash or you want to play games then simply go bark up another tree.

I've been working on my hypno script and plan to have it done soon. i'm just trying to decide if i want to just make mp3s or if i want to do videos too. i also think i should download a better recording program because Microsoft sound recorder probably wont give me the results i'm looking for. I have a nice mic though, i had a slave buy me a $100 one back when i first started and now i finally have a reason to use it.

I hope you've been saving for the holidays!
ive added new items to my wishlist, go buy them up!

Do any of you ladies use ChipIn?

Mon, 23 Nov 2009 04:31:50 GMT

So the other day i get an IM from some guy saying that i should get a ChipIn widget for my site because its a good way for overseas boys to send payment and it will completely hide my paypal email address. so basically my questions are do any of you ladies use chipin? does it hide your email? do you have trouble with canceled payments with this sort of method? Would you recommend it?

i've been having a ball catching up with whats been going on in the scene since i took a break. Why is there always so much drama?! i also see that everyone seems to be pissed off as hell with niteflirt haha. i signed in to see that i had a negative rating...which is funny to me because i havent even been accepting calls O_o. i also see a lot of girls joined this myflirtstore thing, which i still no nothing about. how does it compare to clips4sale?

I have school tomorrow and i soooo dont want to go! im ready for the semester to just be over already! and i have a psych exam that i totally didnt study for :/

You know, it be really awesome if i could make some sort of members site for my homework slaves that i could just upload my assignments to and they could pick them up from there. I also wanted to make a clips4sale members area but im still not sure. I have way too many ideas and absolutely no time to get anything done!

i joined more toplists. yea, its gotten a bit excessive, but whatever. click click click!

new youtube clip

Fri, 20 Nov 2009 02:10:57 GMT

Hey losers :)

I took some new pics the other day, super cute right? i also posted a new video on youtube :). Just a little update & a reminder that the holidays are coming up WHICH IS A TIME FOR GIVING and that is exactly what i expect you to do! The clip will be at the bottom of this post.

Also, i'm a bit annoyed at the amount of boys contacting me WITHOUT filling out an application & sending their 1st tribute. I wont have a conversation with you until i've recieved both, so its really just a waste of both of our time to message me and try to talk before you send them. All I'll do is send you my url and ignore you until you do what you've been told to do. and if you dont do it then my blocked list is waiting for you. -shrugs- just a heads up. You know what im here for.

wtf?

Mon, 16 Nov 2009 20:14:34 GMT

so some obviously retarded person just messaged me. it started out pretty normal then he said:

ricci meyers (11/16/2009 2:41:01 PM): by the way i can send you my personal pics real quick
Mistress Mara (11/16/2009 2:41:12 PM): i didnt ask for personal pics.
Mistress Mara (11/16/2009 2:41:22 PM): do what i told you to and tell me when you are finished.

i figured that would be the end of it, but as i said before, he's retarded. there was some pointless talking and then...

ricci meyers (11/16/2009 2:45:41 PM): well i wanted to send my pics real quick to see whats up
Mistress Mara (11/16/2009 2:46:06 PM): ....i dont need your pics if you arent serving me...and it doesnt sound like thats what you've messaged me to do.
ricci meyers (11/16/2009 2:46:21 PM): i will serve u lol
Mistress Mara (11/16/2009 2:46:34 PM): then you need to fill out an application and send your first tribute
Mistress Mara (11/16/2009 2:46:43 PM): you can find the info on the site
ricci meyers (11/16/2009 2:47:07 PM): ok so after i filled out an app i can send them?
Mistress Mara (11/16/2009 2:47:19 PM): fill out an app and send your tribute.
Mistress Mara (11/16/2009 2:47:33 PM): send the tribute first. amazon gift card to missmaramenocide@gmail.com
ricci meyers (11/16/2009 2:52:06 PM): get it
Mistress Mara (11/16/2009 2:52:09 PM): ....why the hell are you sending me pics?
Mistress Mara (11/16/2009 2:52:14 PM): i dont give a shit about your pics
Mistress Mara (11/16/2009 2:52:40 PM): ....
ricci meyers (11/16/2009 2:53:00 PM): damn what your problem....look its all good delete my fuckin pics then u stuck up whore shit
Mistress Mara (11/16/2009 2:53:16 PM): lmfao whatever creeper.
Mistress Mara (11/16/2009 2:53:28 PM): people pay for my pics
Mistress Mara (11/16/2009 2:53:33 PM): you cant give yours away
Mistress Mara (11/16/2009 2:54:08 PM): and im sure this is what you wanted in the first place, but they prob wont be kept on the "down low"
Mistress Mara (11/16/2009 2:54:12 PM): bye bye now
ricci meyers (11/16/2009 2:54:18 PM): shutup u fag just delete them got it
Mistress Mara (11/16/2009 2:54:42 PM): lmfao @ fag
Mistress Mara (11/16/2009 2:54:49 PM): i dont know how thats supposed to be insulting
ricci meyers (11/16/2009 2:55:11 PM): look u fake ass bitch i said delete them now
Mistress Mara (11/16/2009 2:55:33 PM): your empty insults have no effect on me...im just sitting here laughing.
Mistress Mara (11/16/2009 2:55:42 PM): i also dont take demands.
Mistress Mara (11/16/2009 2:55:48 PM): annnnd blocked

haha! its so painfully obvious that he WANTED them posted. just dying for attention. Now, normally, because this is so obvious i would indeed delete the photos and never think of this idiot again. however, since he was so grotesquely ugly that even i was grossed out by the pics i thought id post some. Someone get this retard some proactive! if anyone wants to see more (im not sure why anyone would WANT to see more of this freak) let me know and ill forward you the email. his email address was ricci_meyers@yahoo.com.

...he is sucking his own dick and calling me a fag O_o. I'm really thinking it must have been a joke... but then again i guess some people really are that idiotic. -shrugs-

Mon, 16 Nov 2009 01:38:05 GMT

joining and re-joining some toplists. I was deleted from a ton of them...not really sure why. maybe inactivity. anyway, click click click!

Whats new

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 08:58:14 GMT

school school school

So as you know im back in school. im so busy that i dont even have time to re-do my extension! this is probably the longest amount of time that ive had normal old hair since i was 15. The fact that my boyfriend LOVES it eases the pain a little lol. However, the wild hair is going to be back because what i like is really all that really matters. The semester is almost over so that will give me some time to make the new extensions. I havent posted photos in a while, so im going to put up a few recent ones.

Homework slaves?

Its sort of pointless now that the semester is almost ending, but i want some homework slaves. I can always use your help next semester. email me: missmaramenocide@gmail.com.

I like

So, i was googling my website url because im a vain bitch and i found an interesting journal entry:

" There seems to be an awful lot more sites devoted to pay pigs and humiliation these days. I'm discovering new ones all the time. One might fear that some wannabes are jumping on the bandwagon, but so far all the sites I've seen are exemplary. The latest one I found, was proof of alot of effort and a true Dominant Woman. And going through Her different sections it looks like She has a large following. See for Y/yourself... http://www.maramenocide.com/ It's a well put together site, and Her arrogance, cockiness and confidence is extremely over powering! Using all my faculties to resist! "

Miss Mara...hypno domme?

I've been researching the whole hypno fetish scene and i think i might want to dip my cute little toes into that next. I'll probably be making some video clips, photos, and mp3s. I think i'll do a few more bubblegum videos as well, those always sold well.

I want it.

If anyone has a full copy of photoshop cs4, illustrator, artisteer 2, or any nice video editing programs contact me! I also wanted to learn about Joomla so if anyone has a lot of experience with it send me an email.

"you have to pay if you want some more"

I love this song! and how appropriate? I really dig the art too.

:p

Sun, 30 Aug 2009 22:25:04 GMT

i bet you've missed me! but i've been busy enjoying my summer instead of wasting my time with you losers :p. I'm heading back to school tomorrow and i'm not looking forward to it. i'm really going to miss relaxing and just hanging out all the time but i think the change will be good. I'm sitting here typing on my brand new lap top, which i am completely in love with. I have so much to do before tomorrow so i'm off. Head over to my wishlist and go buy me some back to school gifts asap! haha

Raves, sicknesses, conventions and hacked accounts

Sat, 13 Jun 2009 05:43:24 GMT

So last weekend i went to this huge rave called Starscape. It was a BLAST. I loved the music, loved the place it was held at (on the shore), and i met a lot of cool people. the thing went on from 2pm to 6am.

The top and the striped stockings were bought from my wishlist a while back...i dont remember by who :p

God damn it...

So a few days after that amazing day of dancing my throat started hurting...then the body aches...congestion...cough...fuck :/. So now im sick. I went to the doctor today and got some meds, hopefully i'll be better in the next couple days.

So, next month...

Is the convention i go to every year. I'll need cash, so send me some.

Hacked account?

I think someone got into my email account and sent bogus emails to people. I got a message from a guy i used to make custom clips for as if he was relying to a message i sent that said:

"my friend also does custom videos
go and look at her profile
if you're interested which you should be--
email her at twiliyhtgoddess@yahoo.com

http://www.collarme.com/personals/v/867003/default.htm"

i replied with "I never sent that. i guess someone has been in my account."

to which he replied with:
"Wow! Someone hacked your acct. & sent that out?.Thats crazy. Do you know the girl that was mentioned in the email because she did respond to my email. That is crazy."

haha i love how i was like "eh, oh fucking well" and he was all like "WOW!" like it was so crazy. i mean, its just the email i use to talk to you losers haha. I changed my password so i assume it'll be fine.

The new site is up & a little gift show off

Tue, 02 Jun 2009 05:17:15 GMT

so im all done re-doing my site and moving it to the new server. I definitely think this is the best layout ive made for it yet. i added a few new pages, so be sure to check that out. I'm also going to be adding a page to sell my worn shoes, socks, ect.

lately ive been getting a lot of requests to cam with people and even though id be getting paid for it, its just not as fun as caming with someone whos serving me...so ive been turning them down. I'm not a cam whore whos going to jump on cam at your request. Things will be done my way.

anyhoo, onto the gifts!

As i'm sure most of you who read my blog have noticed, i fucking LOVE pleated skirts. I got a new tripp nyc pleated mini with a gift card from tiny tim. I got a philips sonicare electric toothbrush with a gift card from J. Its pretty nice.

Konad nail stamping art luxury kit. Pretty neat, but wayyyy overpriced. Good thing it wasnt my money! :p

a few OPI nail polishes. I'm into China Glaze nail polishes now, though. I got a ton of them...but they'll be in my next show off as i dont feel like taking/uploading/resizing/posting pictures of them at the moment.

my boyfriend surprised me by getting this from of my wishlist! :)
its a 120g 7th gen. i had a 30g 4th gen but i had too much music for it.

Braun Soft Perfection Pink Epilator. Its very effective at removing hair....but hurts like a bitch the first time. This thing would be PERFECT for punishing a bad slave haha. men are so fucking hairy, this would cause some damage.

cute volatile platform sneaker wedges bought by my Task bitch. He also got me a black pair but the freaking amazon store said they were on back order and that id have to wait...then once the 2nd package from them finally came it was another pair of THE SAME FUCKING WHITE SHOES. I definitely wont be adding items from that shop to my wishlist again. Now i have to go through the hastle of sending them back and getting them to send the correct ones.

great books.

Havent finished any of these, but the why men love bitches one is good so far. The one that talked about different teen cultures in japan had one where sexy school girls dated older rich business men. There was even a quote from one of the girls saying "The old man is nothing but a purse". needless to say, i'm loving that book as well.

Havent read these yet.

now go buy me more!

http://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/wishlist/1QV97Q4LZY6JU/ref=lst_llp_wl-go

My website will be down for a little bit...

Fri, 29 May 2009 01:27:07 GMT

So, my website is going to be down for a little while because im switching hosts and re-doing a lot of things. To anyone who wants to make a website do not use webhostingbuzz.com as your host. Sure, seems like a good deal, until they make up random charges throughout the year. Also, i'm pretty sure their customer service representatives are retarded. The new host honestly doesnt seem too good either. I signed up and got no confirmation email or login info. Then the next day i get an email saying that my order wasnt completed and to click some link to continue. I go to the link and its basically telling me to start over. I replied with if it wasnt completed why was i already charged? then theyre all like oops and some how magically figured it all out. Its so sad how much these places try to get over...i mean are other people really that stupid?

Now that i have straight dreads again i dont know wtf i was thinking with the curly ones lmfao. I like the straight ones so much better.

Anyway, in addition to switching hosts i've made a new layout and i have to re-do most of the pages because i didnt save them before my other account expired :/

I've been thinking about making a members area as well as selling used shoes, socks, stocking, ect. Not sure yet, though.

I've been dealing with this new sub who i'm going to call my Task Bitch. I have him running around researching things and writing up essays for me haha. Its pretty hilarious having a grown man researching nail polish brands and reviews so he can tell me which ones the best for me. We've talked about him giving me his cell number so i can text him for directions or reviews or any sort of info id want while im out. The only problem is that means he'd have my cell number too. Its not like id allow him to call it but i still dont want him to have it....at least not yet. Thats a big privilege.

I havent done a gift show off post in a litte bit, maybe i'll make one soon. In the mean time you can go to my wishlist and buy me some things to show off.

WTF of the day: "WHY ARE AFRICAN AMERICAN FEMALES RACIST..."

Mon, 18 May 2009 19:21:31 GMT

click to view profile

So the dude above sent me a pretty idiotic message on myspace.

Subject: WHY ARE AFRICAN AMERICAN FEMALES RACIST AT ASIAN AMERICAN MALE??

body: Hello,
I am a asian american male here wondering why african american females are racist at asian american males?? I am sure u understand that asian males have faced alot of injustices. I was wondering why this is the issue between asian males and african american females? I really believe african american females get treated better then asian males now because at one time african american females were at the bottom of the othbarrel like we asian males still are. I have pride that will keep me going forever. I don't understand why u will date or marry a white man like most of my asian sisters, but not date or marry a asian man of color meaning another minority man?? Please explain this???

Tai

give me a 517-899-7280

I was so tempted to say "because your cocks are fucking tiny and black females like to be pleased, but i took the serious road and replied with...

uh...im not racist against asian men, nor do i know any black women who are, so im not sure why you're asking me this. And theres a big difference between racism and simply not being attracted to someone.

then he sent...

Hey give me a phone call at 517-899-7280, you should be holnor that a asian man likes u. 99 percent of asian men don't like black women yet along blacks

and i said...

haha i'm not interested....and it really seems like you're the racist one here. its sad that race matters so much to you. I also dont know what the fuck "holnor" is supposed to mean as it isnt a word. If you meant "honored" then you're obviously a very sick person. I'm really surprised any woman of any race would find someone with your views attractive. I also think its funny that after i ignored your phone number the first time you decided to post it again. I didnt miss it by mistake.

The fucking idiot was lucky i even replied. *rolls eyes*
WTF indeed.

Its been a while since i've updated!

Sun, 17 May 2009 17:14:26 GMT

Things have been soooo fucking hectic lately. So much drama in my personal life. Also, one of my oldest subs, my uk heel slut, is no longer serving me. oh, and i have a new hair-do since my last post.

But, before putting in the new extensions i made a smoking video for my clips4sale store.

Smoking 2 marlboro reds- *gasp* my real hair!
Took a break from the extensions so i thought id make a video while they were still out. I put on lip stick then smoke some marlboro reds. lots of playing with my hair as i have literally forgotten what it felt like haha :p.
Price: $10.99 USD
Length: 7 minutes

go buy it up!

and...

I posted a sample of it on my youtube.

in other news...

i received a message on youtube that made me giggle:

"I could be mistaken but I think I saw you in a thrift store in my home town of canton, ohio. I didn't say anything due to the nature of your videos and website, I figured a stranger approaching and recognizing you may be a little awkward. I'm also a very shy person."

It wasnt me, I've never been to ohio. I think it would have been hilarious if he went up to this random girl asking if she was a dominatrix with fetish videos on the internet. He might have gotten slapped.

Another funny thing...

Some loser (4:08:26 PM): your latest smoking video is one of the most beautiful things i've ever seen. if i come down to baltimore, could i be an ashtray in one of your videos and also do housework for you and pay for your drinks if you go out?
Miss Mara (2:08:06 PM): i actually may be coming to nyc later this month with some friends
Some loser (6:00:07 PM): wow. really? unfortunately, i won't have my place to myself then. i guess you're driving in, right? i could pay for drinks at clubs or something if that's useful. Ugh. i wish you were in town now. i'd be so honored to have you and your friends as guests, and i'd LOVE to be the first human ashtray in your clips4sale videos.
Miss Mara (6:01:05 PM): yea, you can def buy me drinks and such. haha i bet my subs would like a vid like that.
Some loser (6:02:36 PM): i could always take a bus down to baltimore to be in videos. i could hang around to clean too if you had use for that -or if any of your friends did. i do great cleaning. amazingly thorough. people can't believe it when they see how i clean behind and under the refrigerator and all the hard to get to places.
Miss Mara (6:07:32 PM): haha
Miss Mara (6:07:38 PM): maybe ill take you up on that
Some loser (6:13:41 PM): i hope so. i'd really do anything you told me to do on cam - as long as i could wear a hood. being recognized could wreck my teacing career.

So, some of my friends and i may be going to NYC at the end of the month. If you want to help fund the trip message me.

& lastly...

An artist that i like named Peaches is coming out with a new album and released a deliciously fetishy music video for it. A balloon freaks dream.

updates

Mon, 30 Mar 2009 22:02:50 GMT

why is it that the week i decide to take out my hair it rains every fucking day? i've found myself straightening it multiple times a day :/. i can't wait for my extensions lmfao.

my boyfriend got his tonsils taken out :(. he's in all sorts of pain, its pretty horrible to watch. He's too cute to be in so much pain :/ lmfao.

this weekend i put some of Tiny Tims pics on my phone and showed them to some friends while recording their reactions. it was pretty fucking hilarious. I havent uploaded it yet and he has basically been begging for it...i think i'll take my time though.

UK Heel Slut: this is getting ridiculous :/. Send me a message and tell me whats going on with you.

As for basically all my other slaves, theyve been dismissed. If you arent pleasing me theres no reason for you to be around.

gasp real hair

Fri, 27 Mar 2009 08:38:15 GMT

the dread extensions i had in last were just looking and feeling icky to me so i had to take them out, even though i didnt have more ready. So, for the first time in like 6 years i just have normal old hair haha. i have that poofy, curly mixed girl hair but i of course hate it. which is funny because so many people tell me how they love that type of hair. i straightened it because i really just cant stand the curls.

just did a little cam session with Tiny Tim and he thought the new do was super hot. I figured the guys would. Too bad for you i'm getting my extensions back as soon as possible. what i like is of course more important than what you losers like :p

I am accepting new slaves...

but dont bother me on yahoo unless you've filled out the application on my website and sent that first tribute!

speaking of tributes, you all need to run over to my wishlist and buy up some of those lovely new items i added to it!

I'm so sick of copycat bitches.

Fri, 20 Mar 2009 18:20:46 GMT

Since i started being a financial domme i cant even tell you how many people have messaged me asking how to get started in it. The worst is when its people i actually know (If it was someone i was close to, i of course wouldnt mind helping them, these are people im not really friends with but i know of) and they expect me to help them with it...or think its acceptable to take MY WORDS off my website as long as they give credit. Its just pathetic when they never showed any interest in the scene until i did it. I'm not sure how people expect me to teach them how to dominate someone....you can either do it or you cant. The best is when i call them out and theyre like "uh no, i know other people who are into it"....uh...well then ASK THEM YOUR FUCKING QUESTIONS. I feel like all the things people ask me about are things that i learned on my own. I read about it, trial and error, ect. but for some reason people think i'm supposed to do all the work then teach them. I wasn't put on the earth to help mentally deficient bitches who cant learn shit on their own. plus some of the things i'm asked really seem like common sense shit. In conclusion...

when it comes to my hair, make-up, web design, hobbies or anything else i do: No. i wont help you do it too. Read a book. Try it. join a club for it. use google. Do anything besides bothering people who are motivated enough to learn on their own.

There are help forums on the internet for basically anything you'd want to know. take advantage. I actually do post on some help forums every once in a while and answer peoples questions on certain things im interested in. Thats because these people know how to ask in the right place, they found a community for the topic where they can find people who are WILLING to help and are there to talk about the subject, they dont just bother random people on the internet.

ok, end of rant, haha.

rolls eyes idiot.

Sat, 07 Mar 2009 02:17:44 GMT

So some random person sends me this in an email.

"Maybe i write you just because i am really drunk, but i love real blackmail and i want be your real blackmail slave. I love you. I am going to give you a lot of info about me for you to use and drain my wallet and ruin to me. I would lose all for you.

Full Name: Pablo Roberto Menendez
Age: 24
No married
What kind of work do you do?: shop-assistant
E-mail & MSN: pab10_pablo@hotmail.com
Girlfriend: Monica
Yearly Income (approx): 18000€
Savings: 7000€
I live in Oviedo (Spain)

BILLS
House Payment/Rent: 500€
Home & Cell phone bill: 30€
cable bill: 60€
light/heat bill (monthly):30€
credit card bills (monthly total): 100€
extras (clothes, books, online accounts, etc): 60€ entertainment (movies, dinners, etc): 200€
all other bills: 200€
Many of these expenses on my girlfriend
Name Of Work Place: Carrefour
Work Phone Number: 985143244
Boss' E-mail: carrefour.angel.blanco@gmail.com
Girlfriend emails: monica.perez.xixon@gmail.com

I send you some incriminating pictures too."

The photos weren't too incriminating and were actually quite dull. Oh you subs, always thinking you're doing something special. I replied to him and then he sent me:

"I was drunk when I wrote this, it is true that I want to be blackmailed by you, but I can not because my girlfriend and I know eventually leave. Besides she already assumed much of my expenses and I could not tribute to you. Sorry."

lmfao then why the hell are you contacting me? Do you enjoy just sending random people your information? Let me help you out then, idiot. I doubt the info is even real, but if it is perhaps it will teach your dumb ass a lesson.

wtf?

Thu, 05 Mar 2009 22:13:22 GMT

so i got an email from someone on youtube telling me they saw one of my videos on another account advertising some site im not on.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_JhB85Mnt2I&feature=channel_page

*rolls eyes* fucking ridiculous.

Gift show off

Thu, 05 Mar 2009 06:10:00 GMT

My memory card reader came in the mail today so i can finally upload photos and videos again. I havent done a show off post in quite some time so i thought i'd do one.

A printer from cashcowchris. I plan on setting it up once i get my new desk and re-arrange my room.

Lots of Sephora and MAC products. You know how i love nice make-up. I also got a big pack of 5 gum.

A few books. I've read a bit of bitchfest and the science of beauty (survival of the prettiest) so far. Bitchfest is really full of shit i already know about society from being an angry female teenager growing up haha. The science of beauty is pretty good though so far. I always knew looks were important...but this book really shows you exactly how much...its sad but insanely interesting haha.

"Pandoras Box" storage book to hide all the money i get out of you in ;p

a pink plaid vest, an electric pore cleaner because icky skin is unacceptable and i never want to have it :p, and Nads hair removal kit....which ive totally wanted to try for years after seeing their infomercials back in the day but for some reason never did.

An acrylic paint kit and Too Faced eye shadow from my heel slut and this adorable thing called "the butt station"

It holds pens, tape, post its, and paper clips go in the little toilet and stick to his magnetic ass lmfao. its like a little desktop slave!

I love all my gifts,

But i want MORE.

So go get me what i want :)

Thanks, but no thanks.

Tue, 03 Mar 2009 05:35:22 GMT

So some guy contacted me today and the convo went like...

stevezwdc: Hello. Nice to meet you
Mistress Mara:who are you?
stevezwdc: I saw your website. I am a sub.
Mistress Mara: Name?
stevezwdc: Steve
Mistress Mara: And were you looking to serve me, steve?
stevezwdc: I am interested in a cam and chat session sometime if that is ever possible.
Mistress Mara: What sort of session?
stevezwdc: Well I think we share many interests.
stevezwdc: Smoking, foot/hose/stockings fetish, forced femme, blackmail(fantasy), cbt.
Mistress Mara: ah. yes, i do find those interesting.
Mistress Mara: That still doesn't explain the type of cam session you're looking to have.
stevezwdc: Well, I guess a combination of those fetishes.
Mistress Mara: ....quite a session.
stevezwdc: haha, indeed
Mistress Mara: And im guessing this would be some sort of 1 time thing?....and thats why you chose not to fill out the application on my site...
stevezwdc: well, perhaps a time to time thing. Not looking for long term right now. I'll be honest.
Mistress Mara: ah.
stevezwdc: Are you currently sessioning with long term subs only?
Mistress Mara: Usually boys who come plan on sticking around. Its not fun if you dont know anything about the person.
stevezwdc: That's understandable.
stevezwdc: I have sessioned with quite a few ladies.. I currenly only session with a few I have known for a long time, however.
Mistress Mara: i'd say you should probably stick with them, then.
stevezwdc: Ok fair enough. Perhaps sometime in the future we can get together for a session.
Mistress Mara: i dont know a thing about you, you arent specific in what you're looking for and you're just looking for a quick fix and not actual servitude....so i doubt it. I prefer loyal boys. good luck!
stevezwdc: If not i'll have to settle for more of your clips4sale clips i guess. lol... Thankd for your time. Have a good night.

Although he was fairly polite i'm not in this to please other people. I'm looking to be pleased. I'm looking for SERVITUDE. I'm not looking to play a part for any of you on my webcam so that you can get your kicks. Fuck you and fuck that. This is real.

Also, if you want to serve me:
Fill out the application on my website and send your first tribute before bothering me. Also, be as detailed as possible when filling out your application.

Showing you can follow simple directions is very important.

Anyway,

Since my last post i finally heard from my heel slut. Heres a little bit of his message (the rest isnt any of your business :p):

"i also hang my head in shame Miss Mara.
i have just read Your recent livejournal entries and have seen Your displeasure with me."

"seeing 'he used to be my favourite sub' has really brought home the fact that i have responsibilities to You, my owner, too and that i must be more attentive however difficult my personal situation is. i am so very sorry and hope my actions may be seen as an apology."

By his actions, he probably meant the many items he bought off my amazon wishlist. I'm very excited to get them! One of them was the Scum Manifesto by Valerie Solanas who i mentioned liking a post or two before this one. Good boy :). He's an easy one to forgive being that he's been with me so long and has always been good. I'm pleased that he saw what he was doing wrong and I know he's going to fix it.

Speaking of the Scum Manifesto...

You can find a typed up version of it here. Although its full of some wacky ideas, i think its also full of a lot of truth. -shrugs- Sigmund Freud had some pretty loony ideas as well. I'm going to post a little bit of it here:

"there are non-human, male reasons for wanting to maintain the money system:

1. Pussy. Despising his highly inadequate self, overcome with intense anxiety and a deep, profound loneliness when by his empty self, desperate to attach himself to any female in dim hopes of completing himself, in the mystical belief that by touching gold he'll turn to gold, the male craves the continuous companionship of women. The company of the lowest female is preferable to his own or that of other men, who serve only to remind him of his repulsiveness. But females, unless very young or very sick, must be coerced or bribed into male company.

2. Supply the non-relating male with the delusion of usefulness, and enable him to try to justify his existence by digging holes and then filling them up. Leisure time horrifies the male, who will have nothing to do but contemplate his grotesque self. Unable to relate or to love, the male must work. Females crave absorbing, emotionally satisfying, meaningful activity, but lacking the opportunity or ability for this, they prefer to idle and waste away their time in ways of their own choosing -- sleeping, shopping, bowling, shooting pool, playing cards and other games, breeding, reading, walking around, daydreaming, eating, playing with themselves, popping pills, going to the movies, getting analyzed, traveling, raising dogs and cats, lolling about on the beach, swimming, watching TV, listening to music, decorating their houses, gardening, sewing, nightclubbing, dancing, visiting, `improving their minds' (taking courses), and absorbing `culture' (lectures, plays, concerts, `arty' movies). Therefore, many females would, even assuming complete economic equality between the sexes, prefer living with males or peddling their asses on the street, thus having most of their time for themselves, to spending many hours of their days doing boring, stultifying, non-creative work for someone else, functioning as less than animals, as machines, or, at best -- if able to get a `good' job -- co-managing the shitpile. What will liberate women, therefore, from male control is the total elimination of the money-work system, not the attainment of economic equality with men within it.

3. Power and control. Unmasterful in his personal relations with women, the male attains to masterfulness by the manipulation of money and everything controlled by money, in other words, of everything and everybody.

4. Love substitute. Unable to give love or affection, the male gives money. It makes him feel motherly. The mother gives milk; he gives bread. He is the Breadwinner.

5. Provide the male with a goal. Incapable of enjoying the moment, the male needs something to look forward to, and money provides him with an eternal, never-ending goal: Just think of what you could do with 80 trillion dollars -- invest it! And in three years time you'd have 300 trillion dollars!!!

6. Provide the basis for the male's major opportunity to control and manipulate -- fatherhood."

Its a good read, really.

An actual male friend of mine said to me recently
"I remember reading the S.C.U.M. Manifesto in 7th grade and thinking that I need to find myself a mistress."
when i mentioned reading it again. I obviously found this amusing.

The other day...

i got a message that i actually enjoyed reading, i love when a man knows how to speak to a woman.

"Mistress please may this 6ft6 boy humbly kneel and submit his mind body soul wallet wants and needs before you to learn of you to worship to sacrifice to please adore and gain your favor, i am an experienced sub/slave looking to find favor in your eyes so i may worship grow and be molded and trained to serve you and only you, can we please talk Mistress?"

sounds pretty nice, huh? This one got a reply. haha

call idiots!

Sun, 01 Mar 2009 07:19:16 GMT

call me bitches!
i just got done clubbing and im at a friends house accepting calls on niteflirt. i'm sure you'd love to have us laugh at you :p

loves it!

Sat, 28 Feb 2009 21:17:44 GMT

"Valerie Solanas (1936 - 1988), author of the feminist satire 'The SCUM Manifesto', shot Andy Warhol in 1968. I have painted her as the Saint of Rage."

I remember being obsessed with this chick back in high school. Shes a crazy one, but had some pretty interesting ideas about men.

Tiny Tim, you sure are tiny!

Fri, 27 Feb 2009 23:25:43 GMT

So a new boy contacted me. Hes actually around my age, which is rare. Sadly, he has a microscopic penis. For this reason i've given him the name Tiny Tim. His pinky is actually bigger than his penis, its quite odd.

lmfao he's smaller than a bar of soap. its really crazy.

Guys: if you pull your pants down in front of a girl and she just automatically starts texting her friends, then you have a small penis.

Other than being completely worthless sexually Tiny Tim doesnt seem to be too much of a bad guy :p haha

I'm chatting with him as i write this and thought this was funny:
Mistress Mara: well, you'll just have to learn to eat pussy really really really well
TinyTim: yea i do i think im good at it
TinyTim: but i soooo wanna plz a girl with my dick
Mistress Mara: yea, its a great feeling
TinyTim: u think i got any chance?
Mistress Mara: maybe you should try midget girls?
TinyTim: ouch now thats cruel
Mistress Mara: haha im trying to help you!

my UK Heel Slut....where are you? This is probably the first time ive been unhappy with you. Your replies to my emails have been getting slower and slower. I know a lot has been going on with you but what has it been, like over a week? You were my favorite sub!

I had a bit of trouble with that new boy chris, who i think i'm going to refer to as CashCowChris from now on. I wanted his social security number and had to ask way too many times for it. He was also very reluctant to show me photos of him. claiming over and over that he sent them and must have just done something wrong. I eventually got both of the things i asked for as well as an amazon gift certificate to make up for the wait.

Poodle has obviously lost his mind. (not that he was ever sane to begin with)
Here is a little bit of a conversation i had with him a little earlier.

poodle: Mistress what would happen if I went to jail?
Mistress Mara: why would you go to jail?
poodle: cause I let a male dog hump me
Mistress Mara: you let him penetrate?
Mistress Mara: jesus christ. does anyone know?
poodle: yes Mistress
poodle: not yet Mistress
Mistress Mara: then dont tell anyone....
poodle: I don't think anyone saw me, but I am not sure
poodle: what would happen to me in prison though?
Mistress Mara: well where was it?
Mistress Mara: well, im sure human men would be humping you.
poodle: it was in my neighbors yard, he has a german sheperd
poodle: I went late though and it was dark accept for 1 spot light
Mistress Mara: well if nothing has happened so far i doubt it will.
poodle: I wouldn't be treated like a dog in jail right?
Mistress Mara: i dont know. how i am supposed to know how you'd be treated? ive never been to jail.
poodle: I keep dreaming am sitting next to a table in the cafeteria Mistress and begging from scraps from a black gang
poodle: *lies her head on the floor
Mistress Mara: why would it be a black gang? you dont have my permission to go to jail.
poodle: so no more seing that dog?
Mistress Mara: you cant just fuck other peoples animals in public....
poodle: I just want so bad to be degraded and ridiculed
poodle: I know in jail they'd teach me my place though
Mistress Mara: I'm done talking. You obviously dont listen to a thing i say.
poodle: if i payed Mistress 50$ would it be ok to talk about it?
Mistress Mara: If you pay $75 we can talk about it.
poodle: what's the email I send to?

poodle: hope you get a cool gift with certificate
poodle: it's my grocery money
Mistress Mara: good, my happiness is worth more than your groceries. dog food is cheap!

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After getting the money i still just stopped talking and he obviously wasnt too happy about it. He always comes back, so i dont really care. I was too busy copy/pasting what he was saying to my friends and laughing to reply to him. The idiot obviously wants to go to jail....he is such an annoying freak. I love when he whines after i take his money though because i think i honestly dont like him lmfao. so bothering him gives me an odd sense of pleasure. horrible, i know.

I'd much rather have good, strong, fulfilling, connections with my slaves, but when i honestly dont care a bit about them once i get to know them...it can be fun in a whole other way. I can be insanely cruel to them and not give a flying fuck. I can just take out everything on them. its sort of fabulous.

IN OTHER NEWS
i'm almost over being sick, thank god! i hope this will be the last time i'll get a cold for a while. spring needs to hurry the fuck up!

well, i'm off to finish chatting with all these blinking boxes on my start menu bar haha. Then go out with my boyfriend. ta-ta!

p.s. belgium whore i re-posted your info. Dont contact me again.

uhg!

Mon, 23 Feb 2009 19:36:05 GMT

Well, i'm fucking sick again. i blame my boyfriend.

I wanted to post photos of all the tributes that have come, but when i plug my digital camera into my computer it just says "device malfunctioned". I think i broke it when i got sloppy drunk at katsucon a weekend or so ago. I think i may take it to the geek squad and see if they can fix it. I also have a new camera on my wishlist! No camera means no more videos and no more photos, boys. I did take some webcam pics of me in that shirt that came, though.

oh, yeah, my hair is now pink and purple again. That pink, orange, yellow stuff was fun for a while but really just a little too much for everyday.

oh, and can you say FUCKING GROSS?

also,Secretary bitch, i'm done with you.
Below you can find an oh so flattering photo of him.

fuck, now that i'm just throwing everyones shit out there, lets see what other shit i have in the slaves folder of my computer haha!

god, this dismissed freak was fucking UGLY. His name is Heath B McHenry.

he'd come on when his wife and kids were out so i could toy with him. i have some videos of him being gross too.

I have his work number, his wifes number, and his address....maybe one day when i'm bored i'll call them. The loser works at an antique shop of all places...how old lady of you.

Oh, and belgium whore, i'll be putting all your info back up next post.
I'm sick, Im pissed off, and I'm done playing nice.

Miss Mara Menocide

Lelo!!!

I hate finals.

Happy turkey day!

Do any of you ladies use ChipIn?

new youtube clip

wtf?

Whats new

school school school

Homework slaves?

I like

Miss Mara...hypno domme?

I want it.

"you have to pay if you want some more"

:p

Raves, sicknesses, conventions and hacked accounts

God damn it...

So, next month...

Hacked account?

The new site is up & a little gift show off

anyhoo, onto the gifts!

now go buy me more!

My website will be down for a little bit...

WTF of the day: "WHY ARE AFRICAN AMERICAN FEMALES RACIST..."

Its been a while since i've updated!

and...

in other news...

Another funny thing...

& lastly...

updates

*gasp* real hair

I am accepting new slaves...

I'm so sick of copycat bitches.

*rolls eyes* idiot.

wtf?

Gift show off

But i want MORE.

Thanks, but no thanks.

Anyway,

Speaking of the Scum Manifesto...

The other day...

call idiots!

loves it!

Tiny Tim, you sure are tiny!

uhg!

gasp real hair

rolls eyes idiot.